crazy days for me

Life is twisting and turning for me. I don't know who is doing what and who wants what from this life. And the worst realization over and over for me is "Man Is Not An Island". I don't feel liking to anyone these days. I don't feel like living this life. I don't feel like doing anything. There is an emptiness thats filling me.

I want to be let alone to go in my shell where I have no one to disturb me. No one and when I say no one I really mean no one not even my flatmates. It makes me feel so bad to depend on someone for something.

What the fuck? I woke up to realise that unlike everyday someone has not woken me up. Am all alone at home at 10 AM. What a bloody taste I had in my mouth. I was like bloody angry that why the hell can't I wake up everyday on my own. Okay I hurriedly took a bath called up a Cab. And when I looked at my watch just before I realised that I was wearing a jeans and T Shirt on wednesday coz I had a thing on my mind that today is "FRIDAY". I don't know whats happening to me.

Am too stubborn, growing more and more away from being social. I like to keep looking into my laptop cause it helps me fix my mind away from things which bother me. The moment I take a look away I feel utterly uncomfortable, kinda exposed naked. Its depressing at times to think all this I know I try to avoid this but it all comes back to me overn over again. I can't find things to enjoy, even if I find things they don't last enough time.

Music does not appeal to me. I am looking for people on yahoo messenger but I don't feel like talking to them. Even when I talk to someone I am stuck mostly with "AM OKAY, ARE U OKAY" kind of conversations which are mostly because once you initiated it you don't know or rather can't run away. I spend times browsing through communities on Orkut, post messages here and there out of the reason sometimes. Just to do something. The more I think about it the more I realise how little things to do I have in my life.

Morning starts with a ride to LRT to MRT, looking at people moving amongst crowds heading for a place called Office. Evenings are like stuffed back into the same trains and head towards a place people often refer to as home.

There is a kind of discipline which life is trying to put me into, to tie me down but am a free bird. A free spirit who knows not what to do, who fails to look beyond the obvious searching for something. Something which will make me feel good, make me happy but the worst part is there is nothing in this world. Ironically, the search goes on and the possibility of find that thing keeps dwindling.

Thats life. Thats my life. Thats everyones life. Sometimes I wonder if its life living or surviving.

China Town Walk

Life without a laptop just stops.
Misery of a software engineer he can't just live with or wihout it. I decided to take a day off from my work (Saturday n Sunday) and guess what I just couldn't decide what to d and where to go. Coming to office and working is so simple it takes away all the pain of spending time.So many things we cn literally do once I enter the Internet...n at office its always connected. Though at home also I can surf net but my buggin flatmates make life miserable n I feel better when I am alone all by me.
Neways since I had promised myself I went for a walk to China Town and I will let the pics do the talking.

This statue of the ole china man is at the metal gate of some museum around China Square and behind village

and this is one of the four marvellous gates. The oters I could not capture may be some other time I will do the same.

This one just on side of the escalators to china town's pagoda street caught my attention n this one I will name "THE GOVT", thats what was on my mind when I saw this.
There is a different architecture for temples in Singapore and Malaysia. This one is what I saw in China Town, in fact the street is called Temple Street

Don't know what coming up but workers were erecting one pagoda and something else.
It looked beautiful and interesting. There was one charachter with the bow that reminded me of the japanese version of god rama.



Walking around I discovered shades of life in Singapore which are virtually non existent to us when we move around shuffle in between office n home, travel. These untouched aspects of life are visible when you go to Little India on a Saturday or Sunday tp find labours all around or when I took this walk. Anyways claims of the government are now clear to me what it says n even what that means.

And this was the end of the walk. I left for BEDOK took a cab met a friendly cab driver n we had discussions about gambling in casinos of genting. watched Mangal Pandey which is too bad.
And what happens when there are lots of people breaking the law in a so called FINE CITY Singapore..nothing . Wish I could have taken this picture an hor before n the number of people behind this board would have made the difference. Still I will do it next time...there is a saturday every week isn't it?


more next time...can't blog on monday morning when there is work to catch up...

the iPOD insider story..dirty little secret

few times I have bought a product and regretted so much as of after buying my iPOD. Using an iPOD is a good experience but after knowing what apple says iPOD service an shocked...

The following is the information available in the FAQ at the official website

What happens when an iPod is serviced?
iPod equipment sent in for service is replaced with functionally equivalent new, used, or refurbished iPod equipment. Service is prcessed through AppleCare's direct mail-in system. You will not receive the same iPod that was sent in for service. If your original iPod was personalized by Apple, your replacement iPod will be automatically personalized with the same text.


and in case u thought that was all, read this.

Will the data on my iPod be preserved?
No. Songs and files will not be transferred to your replacement iPod. Make sure to back up important files, and to remove all data from your iPod before sending it to Apple. Apple is not responsible for any data sent to it in connection with service.


I have just pointed out to what apple says.

Want to read more..read about the battery replacement program here

I don't know what to say....but as some one pointed out...every rose has its thorn.

iPOD is a product marketed with lots of marketing n people like me really know nothing about it except for the music experience...feel cheated in the end.

Why must not you buy an iPOD ?

a) The battery is non user reaplacable. Though apple has come a long way from the intial days when the battery was not at all replaceable n lasted only 18 months...it was official policy at apple to ask customers to buy a new iPOD instead of asking for a replacement.

b) The iTUNES software. Its hell bad of a software and bulky.

c) You can only transfer files into the iPOD and thats it. If u hvae ideas like okay you will go and copy music on ur iPOD to a friends computer or ur own machine forget it unless u r using in USB harddrive modes..but in this mode u can't play the songs on the iPOD.

d) When I send my iPOD for a battery replacement I will get someone else's iPOD which can even be a refurbished one. Imagine the same u send your laptop for replair n they send u someone else's machine.....this is unberable to me....
So option u r iPOD u inveted in is just a 1.5 years gadget..fucking expensive deal


Pity me I have a 30 GB photo iPOD I bought for 618 dollars in Singapore. I am extremely satisfied with the experience of listening to my iPOD but extremely disturbed about the hidden information which apple never talks about.

More information is available here

shit happens

Updated Monday 22 Aug,2005

Just when I thought it was all over, more shit happens.
I had recreated the data yesterday spending weekend in office n today when I come back I realise there is problem with not one but 847 sku's.

Yesterday was the deadline and now am growing dead..more and more

u delete the transaction ledger on the production database accidently
and u cry in pain....shame n embarassment...thats what happened with me,no one says a word and here I am trying to recover ...pull up the threads.....

I shall regret doing this.....

Sometimes when u love something too much and u kill it urself its not only pain...its much much more than that

lucky me

hey I have got one more pic......great yes I know this doesn't look like a part of IIT Kanpur but yes this is it..IIT K's fmaous MT

what the world needs most today

marks of modern civilization.....as they call them



Sometimes I wonder this is what the world needs...or what we need is food education health care for all....but why should I think of your problems....and why should you think of mine? And please make sure that if some one thinks about them, then it should only be limited to thinking and it has to be made sure that they are never put into action.

Ne ways this is just Petronas...looks good appealing to eyes..worth watching

fuel does it fuel the desire

the fuel which powers us all or is killing us down



Are we eating or this junk is eating us down.....



Imagine a life without burgers/fries ....I can see hunger and death by startvation..okay being a bit myopic I can se hypoglucomia.....

Some one rightly said that if there was a perfect roti maker, why whould a bachelor marry? I can only agree

pic blog

hey I thought y not maintain a picture blog woudn't it bea easier to do then writing all the things one after the another....

here the kinda office stationary that looks good ..



myTune:Led Zepplin's stairway to heaven
myMood: floating
justOneLine:wtf

am sorry frns

sorry people I am getting so bored by life lately that I dun feel like doing anything and so I spend more and more hours in office doing nothing at all for hours together.
I just find any reason to blog as well and that explains why I didn't complete the malysia trip topic.

For the people who have been to IIT K try to recognize the guy in this snap....remember there was a place called MotorTransport...MT nothing to do with motors for us but where they served break fast ...for people like us all through the day ;).

malaysia ..wow truly asia on road from Singapore

Thrusday July 28, 2005

Finally the packed bags were carried and 13 of us excuding the two kids (which made the whole lot of the trip miserable) boarded the ford transit and headed for Malaysia. The trip had so many deviations from the orginal plan, that I sometimes think about it and find that only thing that was common was that we were going by road and the other one is that we were going to Malaysia.

Started of the trip with the wait for Charles n Company to come to the office. Instead of the scheduled arrival at buona vista at 7:30 the bus came here almost 2 hrs late.

After clearing the Woodland's Check Point we crossed over to the no man's land between Singapore and Malaysia, drove for some 10 mins to reach the Johar bahru entry point for Malaysia. Formalities and stamping of our visa's took place n it was so fast that we hardly realised that we were in Malaysia.

Just across the Immigration office were a few shops selling miscellaneous stuff.
To my surprise they were acceptng both ringgits and sing dollars. Went in to buy a pack of Benson and Hedges which costs 11 SGD in Singapore and they guy gave me back more than 11 ringgits. That was the first realization that same Singapore dollars have lot more buying power when in Malaysia, and its almost double at most of the places.
i SGD = 2.29 Ringgits
BTW, I was greeted on board with beers by aashish. Warm Indian hospitality.

Friday 12:15 AM, Johar Bahru

First taste of local cusine in Malaysia was at Johar Bahru at this food court.
Though as a matter of fact, beers were bought at 7-11 store even before the others had taste of food. With Charles and Aasish around that is something which people can call obvious.
First Mishap: First mishap occured the moment we were geting into our transport. Shree Shree 1008 Saju ji, the daughter of King Charles 15 got her fingers trapped into the car's door. N do I need to tell what followed. Search for a doctor in the nite and .....whatever .
Malaysian Highways: Johar Bahru to Kuala Lumpur

Approximately four hours of drive on a highway which boasts a speed of upto 110 KM//hr is KL from Johar Bahru. We were back on roads at around 1:30 AM and our estimate was to reach KL in the morning.
Aashish meanwhile kept bringing out beer bottles which no one except aashish, me and rahul the people in the divider seat knew about. Just when we thought it was all over he would bring out one more and in total 5-6 bottles of beers were dscovered after we had all assumed that okay there was no more beer in the vehicle, the term "HOME BREW" was discovered here.

After around one hour of drive, listening to those songs for the mentally challenged which anand had brought with him and were played until the cd was lost some days later..am really happy for that :D, the driver stopped. He was feeling sleepy. Another one hour and he gave up and Shoaib took over the driver's seat, and drove all the way to just outskirts of Kuala Lumpur.
Rahul had taken over the co-driver's seat and then it started to rain as well.

Heavy rains..lotsa water on roads, driver sleeping..only 3-4 people awake, that was the most difficult time to stay focussed...and stay awake.

We checked in to the Federal Hotel in Kuala Lumpurat 6 am in the morning, and it was really a lovely hotel.
Kuala Lumpur 11 AM, July 29 2005
Woke up to find that Shoaib, ankita, rahul were the only people interested to go out. Sandip, ravi and murari were awready missing.
Went out to explore KL for breakfast. Girls greeted us at a place near our hotel rehearsing for some fashion show...had coffee with lotsa cream n chicken sandwitches for break fast @ STARBUCKS.
Lunch and mobilising the group took full 3-4 hours, which was really horrible and from thr we left for some shopping mall, suggested by our driver and accidently we discovered that there was some boating scene downstairs and before we realised all the people were in a boat heading for the open mine

Some beautiful snaps were clicked on the boat ride and I think the whole 30 mins ride was an awesome experience in itself.

Halted at some meenar where we could c the petronas towers from the front.
Wow what a view of the KL from that tower.


hard rock cafe wow what an electric place to be and beer so cheap compared to singapore...beer beer n beer ...we did booze from midnight to almost 3 am in the morning till they time the band called it a day.
but before we left I was sloshed enuf......and lotsa things happened that nite.
BM

will countinue later