Apr 30, 2006

cooking what a fine thing to do

Well people who know me might be surprised when i reveal this new development. Remember someone long ago said "Need is the mother of invention". No no I have not invented somehting but what has happened latelt ever since i came back to Singapore this feb has changed my culinary habbits and to my wonder I have discovered that I do have an above average natural falir for cooking.
Never tried it before nor wanted to do. In singapore there were little options left after eating out for almost an year. Its so obvious that so many indians living abroad start cookig themselves. We are lazy people (no offences meant for those who are not but I am talking about the gang that I have and people I know) and for me eatihg out those fries and fried chicken and burgers call it McDonalds or KFC or Burger King or Moss Burger or Pizza at Pizza Hut ( I hate those Pizzas) leads to a mental agony. a guilt that you don't exercise and don't even eat healthy food. So I opted for cooking myself and it has turned out to be such good of an experience that I don't even like to ear at those fine diing resturants.

Can you believe I did daal makhani yesterday night. It was so fucking good that I have to confess even I hadn't thought it to be so. I didn't have any idea how to do so many vegetables or pulses but I tend to have a natural talent to do it better than I would put even many chefs who cook Indian food do.

I am so happy eating stuff that I like. I am not excellent at putting how much salt and 5-105 times it goes on the wrong side, but I hardly spend less than 40 mins including the time to eat on cooking. Now the next thing i can think of is learning how to make indian cread or roti as we all call it. Eating rice doesn't come so naturally to me.

Folks come over here...may be I will cook something for us to eat. This is what may be you never expected out of me..nevermind even I didn't!!

Apr 27, 2006

bk from hols..rush to toilet...ahaaaaaaaaaa

Went for a holiday to doon and came back to Singapore.
The holiday was so short that I cannot even say that it was one week i spent in India. It does not even feel like that. I started on 14th morning from here and came back on 23rd Morning. Still it feels like i hardly spent anytime at home but i think thatsw normal to think about holidays and what one feels afterwards.

But the baggage I came back with included something which has forced me to sleepless nights and days of uncomfort. Being so fond of Indian food, I tries eating at so many places including the famous Haldiram's at delhi, KC Soup Bar at dehradun and not to forget all the paani poories/chaat/tikki/ras malai at UP ke wedding. I think it would be unfair if I don't talk about unlimites stuffed parathas at home. So you can very well imagine what would had happened. Looks like of all the nuerous water bottles that I had gulped down..some one had some Enamoeba Histolitica waiting for me..and now all i have are trips are toilet..watery stools and mucous from intestine being flushed.

So folks I will say that one must plan everything especially this thing when you are returnig from India. Don't forget to pack in Ciprolet A to ease your tummy because you will inevitably be forced by something u ate/drank to rush to toilets infinite times. So please pack these tablets with you when you are returning from India and if you have a spare tablets..please pass on to me..........

BTW had the pleasure to attend UP's marriage in Meerut. Here are few pics...


------Preparing for the Day--Sis Doing Hinna on His Hands-----------


---------------Riding to get his soulmate-------------------------


----------------------------the bride n the groom----------------------------

Apr 11, 2006

and it unfolds

It unfolds slowly, so slow that no one notices. So slow that no ones knows. Before any one understands whats happening it unfolds so much that its only thought to be changing in leaps and bounds. But the question is what is it or what it is? This is something we all know so very well that we don't even know. Judging oursleves, judging others, working our day doing chores we are so busy that we even fail to realise that this something is nothing else but the LIFE which is what we are living every day.

One fine day we realise that life has happened to us. Life has changed and then we are struggling to find it its good or bad. How good and how bad? We forget to notice that the life has changed. One of such thing happens every now and then. It happens to me and it happens ro you.

Today was the first BIG meeting I attended. All the people sitting there were bigger than me and I was the youngest. I am sure none of them know me, but i knew them all. The room they called the board room. The CEO, the VP's all the big shots and there in the corner was me. The very me. I didn't speak anything. What would a small guy like me talk there in front of those people who talk about millions and shoulder the responsibility to do things which impact millions of dollars but we are all human isn't it.

These meetings happen all the time. And I sit there as a silent spectator. I am a spectator knowing so little that I am never comfortable to speak up there. Back in my office also when they talk technical stuff I am lost...

LOST I am because I don't know or because its so..it is as it is. There is something I am fighting for working charged up every night day after day but I really don't know what it is that keeps fuelling me everyday. A desire a fire an eternal flame to burn out rather than fade away..looks like an old story in the old package..Kurt Cobain said so as well right but he killed himself.

But I have a plan for my self. Work so hard, strive so hard that it kills you. Beats the shit out of you. That will finish me off. I am not sure about you.

"Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can’t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he’s gone"