Last to last week's open window made me think about what's going on in my life. Not that the exercise made me change my ways, or stimulated me to think about the problem. Rather I will say that all it conveyed and that too in a very subtle manner that I have very few friends I was frequently talking to, made me ponder that after work hours haunt me because I don't know what to do. It conveyed that there was something different in life here in Singapore. And so I thought why not spend some time away from the routine and why not question what seems so right and obvious.
Because if there is a problem then it needs to be rectified and the commitment should be the same as that for work.
"IT people do everything online". Yes I mean it. It's not surprising to find an IT person surfing web looking for swimming instruction (I have seen a frn do that) or learning online how to play a guitar (hats off to my boss). Doing a google comes up so naturally now that I can't imagine any other source of information other than internet. This however reminds me that how painful it has become now a days to surf web. Its not far off that people would be paid for searching information on internet as using google is becoming more and more difficult. But this we can discuss sometimes later also.
I tend to drift a lot and that's what happens when you are searching for something online. Oops i wanted to search about WORKAHOLISM and look what google brings...
Here are some warning signs of workaholism:
a)Your home is just another office.
b)You are hard-driving, competitive, and overly committed to your work.
c)You take office equipment with you wherever you go, even on vacations.
d)Work makes you happier than anything else in your life.
e)Sleep and playtime seem like a waste.
f)You believe that if you get the chance to do it again, you'll do it right.
g)You get restless on vacation (if you even take them) and sometimes cut them short.
h)You frequently are "problem solving" work situations in your mind, even during your "time off."
i)Friends either don't call anymore, or you can't wait to get off the phone when they do call.
i)People who love you tell you that "you have a lot of energy," are "manic," or are a "workhorse."
j)You are tired, irritable, socially isolated, and might even have physical stress symptoms such as headaches, insomnia, shortness of breath, racing heart, muscle tension, or ulcers.
If you can see yourself in most of these characteristics, you probably are a workaholic.
"
Am speechless...each one of these is yes in a way>.laptop goes every where with me..office is home and home is office ..what not headaches and innsomnia keeps visintg as if was sharing my bed...but is it a mere coincidence...People what about you. Dear Mr. Anonymous people say its a problem. Bosses promote this, world encourages this and then one day they say its a problem.
On the second thoughts I think people just hate whatever I start falling in love with. Thats about me how about you.....
Jun 21, 2006
Jun 4, 2006
excerpts from junkie's diary...
The summer sun as westerners call it appears every day in Singapore. Its hot and humid throughout the year and that's why Malaysia and Singapore are so popular destinations for Europeans and Americans. Add to that the fact the conversion rate also makes it easy for them to afford most things in Singapore. Luxury ain't that expensive here when you are earning in Euros or Pounds or USD.
But I didn't open up this post to talk about the economic feasibility of a holiday out here for them nor I wanted to discuss the weather of Singapore. What I wanted to discuss instead is that today am sitting in front of my open window at home. Before of I go on and talk about the open window, there is something more important than this open window. This ain't something which happens everyday. This is an event which I cannot seem to remember in near past or foresee in near future.
Its a sunday afternoon am at home unlike most other sundays. I am not working today, despite of the fact that there are so many deadlines to chase and am just sitting here with air-conditioner switched off. Yes, that's precisely why the window is closed mostly. The hot sun and humidity are best fight when you are armed with aircons.
Outside my window is another world. It sometimes feel I am looking at something I don't know. These are apartments which any one from Indian subcontinent won't bother not to call High Rise, there are people living in them though I assume it or one can say conclude it because the curtains I can see in houses are moving sometimes. There is a beautiful garden (what am I comparing it to..now I wonder this is a lame comparison apples to oranges no better would be oranges to potatoes whatever) and a soft window is blowing.
But I ain't feeling anything good or bad about it. It just doesn't feel like anything. I am listening to the music my iPOD is churning and is playing on the music system. But I can't feel anything. All the thoughts that come to me just pass me by like the wind that is causing the leaves to shuffle. Sometimes the wind is too strong and the leaves jostle but mostly the wind just flows by. That's the kind of thought pattern I have been having.
Give me 10 mins to sit idle I remember my laptop or iPOD. Restrict me from thinking about work and I don't have anything worthwhile to think about. In the pursuit of being busy this work has become something which booze or dope could not become. An addiction which lets me escape, transcend into someone else, a fictitious hero who is fighting the odds, challenging life and work and people to come and fight.
Am living in my own world, hallucinating not like a junkie high on drug but this is another LSD called work. This one is socially acceptable makes you go numb, easily available rather in abundance and people like you to have as much as u can.
What wrong are those junkies doing? Killing themselves too early harming society and what not. What are we doing?
that's why I don't open the windows. Better keep them closed. Its too hard to confront yourself. Its too hard to lie.
Food for thought: "alcoholics" & "workoholics", why do they sound like each other and rhyme. Ever wondered why?
"Close that window...pull the curtains..there is too much light outsight it blinds me and the fresh air is suffocating..."
Just to quote for the scraps..some one talked about searching for something...PINK FLOYD..says it all...
"Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
go down this road we've been so many times"
But I didn't open up this post to talk about the economic feasibility of a holiday out here for them nor I wanted to discuss the weather of Singapore. What I wanted to discuss instead is that today am sitting in front of my open window at home. Before of I go on and talk about the open window, there is something more important than this open window. This ain't something which happens everyday. This is an event which I cannot seem to remember in near past or foresee in near future.
Its a sunday afternoon am at home unlike most other sundays. I am not working today, despite of the fact that there are so many deadlines to chase and am just sitting here with air-conditioner switched off. Yes, that's precisely why the window is closed mostly. The hot sun and humidity are best fight when you are armed with aircons.
Outside my window is another world. It sometimes feel I am looking at something I don't know. These are apartments which any one from Indian subcontinent won't bother not to call High Rise, there are people living in them though I assume it or one can say conclude it because the curtains I can see in houses are moving sometimes. There is a beautiful garden (what am I comparing it to..now I wonder this is a lame comparison apples to oranges no better would be oranges to potatoes whatever) and a soft window is blowing.
But I ain't feeling anything good or bad about it. It just doesn't feel like anything. I am listening to the music my iPOD is churning and is playing on the music system. But I can't feel anything. All the thoughts that come to me just pass me by like the wind that is causing the leaves to shuffle. Sometimes the wind is too strong and the leaves jostle but mostly the wind just flows by. That's the kind of thought pattern I have been having.
Give me 10 mins to sit idle I remember my laptop or iPOD. Restrict me from thinking about work and I don't have anything worthwhile to think about. In the pursuit of being busy this work has become something which booze or dope could not become. An addiction which lets me escape, transcend into someone else, a fictitious hero who is fighting the odds, challenging life and work and people to come and fight.
Am living in my own world, hallucinating not like a junkie high on drug but this is another LSD called work. This one is socially acceptable makes you go numb, easily available rather in abundance and people like you to have as much as u can.
What wrong are those junkies doing? Killing themselves too early harming society and what not. What are we doing?
that's why I don't open the windows. Better keep them closed. Its too hard to confront yourself. Its too hard to lie.
Food for thought: "alcoholics" & "workoholics", why do they sound like each other and rhyme. Ever wondered why?
"Close that window...pull the curtains..there is too much light outsight it blinds me and the fresh air is suffocating..."
Just to quote for the scraps..some one talked about searching for something...PINK FLOYD..says it all...
"Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
go down this road we've been so many times"
Jun 3, 2006
ratti mein jalawa diwa
"sanu ek pal chain naa aawae..."
feels like some one is singing in the train while u are travelling in the summers through the beautiful landscapes of the chambal..beween jhasi and gwalior.....some one singing and begging...remember that huskiness in the voice..the pain and the emotion...well there is somethign close to it..which just makes you go round and round..absorbs youa nd leaves one mesemerized. The guys who has that effect in his voice is called Kailash Kher and the song am talking big about is called "Sanu ek pal" (Though I am not sure its the song which is the catalyst or its my soul which has a very low flash point..but whatver it is..am on fire)
Kailash Kher shot into fame with the "Allah Ke Bande". There is how ever much more than that the guy has.The pious voice is worth of much more. Just got a chance to lay hands on one of his album called "awargi" (courtset pauyaar.com) and the believe me if some one likes the rustic huskiness in the voice of abida parveen or the voice of Nusrat saheb in his last days, this guy has a lot of potential then this voice is a real contender in the league if and thats big if..the guys becomes more consistent.
The song "sanu ek pal" is rendered in the folk sufi style. The guy hails from the lucknow but the voice has that rural touch some one who has lived its life in may be haryana rajasthan or perhaps sindh. Enchanting experience thats what would I say.
But every rose has its thorn. The guy is pretty inconsistent in the album. Sometimes the songs are too dry and you kinda feel the lack of emotions. But neverthless this guy will be someone to watch in near future.
Keep singing dude..we are listening....and for those who prefer to try here is the link
"rati mein jalawa diwa..hanjawa de terada..
hayo rabba sajana nu cheeti kyon nahi bhejda"
Just a quick update there is one more classic from the guy
A new track called Naiharwa in the album Kailasa.
.one more excellent composition,,this one has some eastern UP touch...naiharwa....
Must hear for the lovers of sufi and abida's fan..and believe me it won't dissapoint you.
feels like some one is singing in the train while u are travelling in the summers through the beautiful landscapes of the chambal..beween jhasi and gwalior.....some one singing and begging...remember that huskiness in the voice..the pain and the emotion...well there is somethign close to it..which just makes you go round and round..absorbs youa nd leaves one mesemerized. The guys who has that effect in his voice is called Kailash Kher and the song am talking big about is called "Sanu ek pal" (Though I am not sure its the song which is the catalyst or its my soul which has a very low flash point..but whatver it is..am on fire)
Kailash Kher shot into fame with the "Allah Ke Bande". There is how ever much more than that the guy has.The pious voice is worth of much more. Just got a chance to lay hands on one of his album called "awargi" (courtset pauyaar.com) and the believe me if some one likes the rustic huskiness in the voice of abida parveen or the voice of Nusrat saheb in his last days, this guy has a lot of potential then this voice is a real contender in the league if and thats big if..the guys becomes more consistent.
The song "sanu ek pal" is rendered in the folk sufi style. The guy hails from the lucknow but the voice has that rural touch some one who has lived its life in may be haryana rajasthan or perhaps sindh. Enchanting experience thats what would I say.
But every rose has its thorn. The guy is pretty inconsistent in the album. Sometimes the songs are too dry and you kinda feel the lack of emotions. But neverthless this guy will be someone to watch in near future.
Keep singing dude..we are listening....and for those who prefer to try here is the link
"rati mein jalawa diwa..hanjawa de terada..
hayo rabba sajana nu cheeti kyon nahi bhejda"
Just a quick update there is one more classic from the guy
A new track called Naiharwa in the album Kailasa.
.one more excellent composition,,this one has some eastern UP touch...naiharwa....
Must hear for the lovers of sufi and abida's fan..and believe me it won't dissapoint you.
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