the guilt of doing business

Yes even I don't know how to put it this way.

The way people behave when something is seems to be going wrong in business. People are looking for emails, other proofs to be produced as an evidence when they anticipate something may wrong.

And how unreasonable this activity is I cannot really comment on it. Yes logically speaking no one would like to be blamed for someone else's fault, but does pin pointing a finger really helps. When people are pursuing something together as a team, the aim is to speak "MISSION ACCOMALISHED" together. But how corporate buck passing works it makes me ponder is it really so or it is what just shows and is portrayed.

No I am not at the recieving end of this. But I know that if every one does his or her job there would be no need for the search of a scape goat. These small things can be tackled far easily by human minds working together. But instead of working out together we are trying to work out against each other. There is more contingency planning going around than the effort to make it out sometimes. How to justify this I don't know. May be am too young, I don't undertand the basic business rules or playing safe strategies ..but still I cannot digest this logic.

There is life beyond success and failure. There is more to life than just pursuing a goal. Wouldn't it be fun if the journey was as pleasurable as the destination?

Destination is not some place where we will reach at the end of the jounrney. We are not supposed to celebrate when we reach at the end. The real fun lies in making the journey "the destination" and celebrating each moment. These success and failures are just pit stops ...keep throttling..

Keep walking ...thats what it means isn't it?


PS: For the anonymous person searching for me...yes this the person you are looking for....am the same guy who was at kvfri ddun n passsed out in 97.

the concept of critical path

Project management is one activity every aspiring developer wants to take on as eary as possible. When you look at the PM aka Project Manager you tend to like his job so much. This guy never needs to actually poke his head through the messy lines of code, never needs to debug, is only asking people about deadlines "WHY" and "WHEN", all the thinking he needs to do is about the documentation in either MS Word or MS Excel or max MS PowerPoint. Not only is the work looks so easy to do and what a handsome salary he is paid for all this easy task.
This is so natural to happen."GRASS IS ALWAYS GREENER" on the other side and this ain't any exception.

How cna i say so coz I was in the developer team in fact even now I am but the only difference is that I am also looking at some things yes I will say some thigns because its such a big thing to handle and I am such a small fly I cannot say I am doing REAL PROJECT MANAGEMENT. I am not even ready for taking up that activity. Why because there are certain aspects to it I only realized when i stepped into the shoes.Primarily because

a) Users and Bosses in general are pretty unreasonable people
b) Users and bosses are human beings and have seasoned with experience
c) Deadlines are real
d) Resources - money (read resources) and time are limited

Amidst these pressures there is this guy struggling to keep a balance into what the clients demand...what they want as he needs to get the job done from his team. He needs to make sure that he envisages all activities which may or may not happen.He needs to plan and not only plan he needs to execute those plans. He needs to protect his team from the outside world and make life easier for them otherwise thr productivity and efficiency is at stake.

What I will say he does a heculean job. That is one reason that we apreciate only few of the managers and call a lot of them "Excel PM". Nothing wrong to it but mananging activities so that overall duration of the project is not exceeded requires much more than a human being has to offer. Thats what makes a successful PM different from all others. The real hero !!!

Sometimes this even means for him to lay himself down on the critical path to bridge the gaps.

So for today I wish someday I will become one "PM".

sweet thoughts of some one

In June 2005, I talked to some one for the last time.
Yes last time and I dun know where the person is. I cannot contact him..its so weird yet I keep thinking..how life is at the other end...

If some one knows whom I am talking about or if some one is in touch.
Please update me whats up at the other end...there are some string which life pulls every now and them.

I some times still think...its just human i guess to live on...

pink floyd rocks...
high hopes...playing on and on its been an hour...
and I am thinking am lost....
check out the video on you tube or google if u are missing this bit...
I cannot agree any more...even after years it still so fresh

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Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun
Along the long road and on down the causeway
Do they still meet there by the cut
There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The nights of wonder

Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide
At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world

****

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
go down this road we've been so many times

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river

Forever and ever
"Hey, is that Charlie? yes... Hello Charlie... great"

guns and roses reloaded

GnR as they are popularly called is one of my all time fav bands and its reloaded big time on my music scene. They are masters of the Rock and there was more than enough packed into the band members talents..AXL ROSE the perfect vocals and SLASH solos.Steven Adler on drums, Izzy Stradlin and Duff McKagan. Master musicians who shot to fame and were on top of the fame around 1990.But as it happens for most on the top. The band just disintegrated and Slash - Adler both are now with Velvet Revolver. As far as I know Axl Rose is the only member from the glorious past who is with Guns and Roses.But I think spilt was the last nail in the coffin coz unless all the ingredients are put in in correct propotions the meal cannot be perfect.

But that the shitty thisg is GnR couldn't handle making it big and shot to fame for bloody all the reasons other than music after they hit the top. So the ned was near. Axl went to drug rehab..he had his own set of problems..and eery body else walked off. Nevertheless some great songs were churned by the band. The powerfuil lyrics really make a point.

You name it and they have songs november rain, estranged, sweet child 'o mine, my michele, yesterday, paradise city,welcome to the jungle and lot more.

I think they are the only competing band with metallica on my hard rocking list who make full time comebacks.


\m/ keep rocking...

"I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I had to put her
Six feet under
And I can still hear her complain "
-- Used To Love Her (Lies)

Read more about them here on Wiki Pedia

all fucked up now...

kill me coz if u dun dear friend some one will...
hate me my frinend coz if u dun I will do it...

am sitting u..working on docs..presentations which don't seem to come to end..am churning shit each day..day after day..am tired..please dun bother to ask me how am I...I will say Great..am fine...no other words to say..

3 months now..for 3 months all these docs and emails and presentations...and pdf's no real work..no hands down technical stuff...this is whats happening here..any more updates wanted!!!...better dun ask

dun ask me anything coz I will lie..am frustrated am tired..thats the story as of now

huhh...